Monday, September 20, 2010

Unassisted Beauty

Monday, September 20, 2010

The impulse to show herself in a splendid setting...had yielded to the truer instinct of trusting to her unassisted beauty, and she had purposely chosen a picture without distracting accessories of dress or surroundings....divested of the trivialities of her little world, and catching for a moment a note of that eternal harmony of which her beauty was a part. 
(Edith Wharton, The House of Mirth, 1905)

Makeup creates a deceptive aura of beauty around an otherwise ordinary face, and without it I feel vulnerable.  For a girl like me who was not endowed with unembellished good looks, going au naturel is not an option. By putting on makeup, I can feign beauty, hide imperfections and appear poised, polished, put together.

Yet when I’m away from home and life’s daily pressures, I do not feel the need to pretty up. Being away from everything, I don’t have to maintain that veneer of impeccability. I can go fresh-faced and natural and, surprisingly, be at ease about it. On the road I can do without cosmetics and ornamentation because I have the unequaled admiration of the one person who believes that I am beautiful though drenched in perspiration, dressed in mussed and mismatched clothes and with hair in disarray. With him I feel beautiful, though I know I’m not.

My puerile preoccupation with pulchritude, I realized, is simply an attempt to conceal some deep-seated insecurities lurking underneath the dolled up surface. And it is only when I feel secure and my ghosts momentarily put to rest that I can do without any assistance and go au naturel.


witsandnuts said...

In my years of existence, there were few times that I have put on make up. Most of which were only when it was necessary. I feel unreal when I'm too dolled up. But I also do appreciate to be dolled up at times. By the way, I think you are beautiful with our without the make up. :)

Kayni said...

you are beautiful angeli.

i wear make up for certain occasions, but recently, i haven't worn any make up at all.

Loree said...

you are still beautiful Angeli. I think it takes some of us many years to love the way we look.

Anonymous said...

i like my girl au naturel. can't stand kissing lips with lipstick! :)

Angeli said...

@wits, kayni, loree: thank you. :)

@anonymous: i know! i don't wear lipstick when i'm with you, do i? (well, sometimes..) hahahahahahhaha

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