Saturday, August 28, 2010
Thursday, August 12, 2010
18-day Vacation
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Youth
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Selfish
Living alone gets really lonely at times, but more often than not I thank the stars for not having to put up with the daily drama of domestic coexistence. A recluse of the most intractable sort, I guard my personal space and revel in the soothing silence of my home. My solitude is inviolable.
Living alone keeps me from being entangled in other people’s lives. It protects me from the clutches of other people’s shifting moods, occluded thoughts, and internal struggles. Only when removed from others can I can sit motionless and regain my balance.
It is during those moments of stillness that I can dare question my life of selfishness and self-indulgence. Is it selfish not to want a ‘conventional’ life? Is it selfish not to want to have any children when you know that you probably won’t be able to give them the best that life could offer? Is it selfish not to want to subject them to this world’s wretchedness? Is it selfish to love someone completely without having to sign a document that makes loving him legal and binding? Is it selfish to live alone when you know that only you can endure living with yourself? Is it selfish to attend to your wants and needs before those of others when nobody else would, or could, do it for you? Is it selfish to value your freedom and solitude when they are the very things that sustain you when all else is stripped away?