Thursday, January 14, 2010

Hastening the Days

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Her eyes are red with sleepiness, but with unabated enthusiasm she reads on. She clicks on this and that site, athirst for anything related to the place they would next go to. Patiently checking ferry rides, bus and train schedules, air fares and flight availability, she wonders why she’s doing all those things this early. Why has she been staying up late planning for something that is not taking place soon?

Maybe it’s because she’s anal. Fussy and fastidious, she wants everything—to the most infinitesimal and trifling detail--perfect and according to plan. Or maybe it’s because she likes doing it. She loves the thrill that comes with research and knowing more about things she previously had no idea about. Or perhaps it’s the wanderlust in her veins, the siren song of the open road beckoning her once again. But the more she thinks about it, the more she grasps that those are not the fundamental reasons.

Hovering at the margins of her consciousness is the insane belief—and wishful thinking--that the more she plans and makes everything perfect, the sooner it will happen, the sooner he’ll be with her again. The waiting has begun anew, and she can’t but do something, anything, everything just to hasten the days.


Kayni said...

hmmm...where to next angie?

Angeli said...

hi kayni. island hopping in malaysia, probably. :)

jacqueline said...

thought so.... that through it all, the excitement of his comeback will make the days more enjoyable. :)

Angeli said...

well it's not excitement i'm feeling right now but more like impatience.

witsandnuts said...

When are you going to Malaysia? Baka magkita tayo. =)

Angeli said...

it all depends on when D can get away. :)

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