Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Superficial State of Being Okay

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Carla, a very close friend of mine, called Sunday afternoon, updating me about the friendster profile of Lorna, my boyfriend’s other girlfriend. For some time now, I never bothered to check her profile, protecting myself from further pain. Listening to my friend recounting the details – the posted pictures, the bubble, everything – was like reopening old wounds that have never really healed yet. Do I have to prove and display the substance of our relationship through photographs and quotations like what she is doing? I don’t think so.

But it hurts still. My supposed present state of “okayness” is superficial. Beneath the placid exterior, in my core being, I suffer still. The pain, though, is less intense now. Perhaps acceptance is setting in. The “letting go” has started. Finally.


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