Monday, March 5, 2012

I don't have to talk, smile or be nice

Monday, March 5, 2012

Everything’s already set when, to my chagrin, I realized that I’d rather spend the night alone than be in the company of old college classmates.  I had my clothes picked out, my face glammed up and my hair ironed to perfection, but, regrettably, I don’t feel that kind of glee a former fat girl who has slimmed into the woman I am now feels when about to meet people who’d be surprised by the transformation.  It could have been a tremendous stroke to the ego, yet I don’t feel as if I want—or need--something like it. The conversation would have been really fun – that I’m sure of. It just takes so much effort to be in the company of others sometimes.  Everything’s easier when I’m alone and I don’t have to talk, smile or be nice. I can just lie curled up in bed with a book and bother no one. When I’m alone no one can intrude into my space, my thoughts and my affairs.

6 comments:

artemis said...

hehehe, relax, sometimes people make a lot of fuss about things they didn't need to. baka na-impress lang sila. but, yeah i understand your feelings. just be yourself, girl, and don't bother trying to please or fill anybody's expectations about you: who they think you were or you should be, or their 'inflexible' image of you. it's their problem if they have issues regarding transformations, hehe... - abi

Angeli said...

hahahah. nalipatak, agbabasa ka gayam ti blog ko.. saanko met gamin nga ammo a nalaing isuda amin. narigaten. hahaha

kayni said...

just be where you're happy. life's too short spent with people that don't make you feel comfortable.

Loree said...

Ah yes, I understand you perfectly. I have a reunion coming up on Friday. I said I will be going, but that this nagging feeling that I will opt out at the last minute. Or maybe not. It will depend on my mood.

journeyman said...

Sometimes we all do likewise. Reunions can be interesting affairs, still I do prefer short ones; always have done.

d_d_d said...

aha! :D parang alam ko to :D

 
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