Monday, July 6, 2009

Faraway

Monday, July 6, 2009

She has that faraway look in her eyes again—a look that makes you wonder if she’s really there, and not someplace else; or that she’s there but hoping not to be. Retreating into a place where only memories exist, she relives the brilliance of particular moments, lest she forgets; lest it all fades away. She tries to recapture the ferociousness of emotions that once overwhelmed her—because of the immense pleasure it gives her and, coming from a deep place within, the fear that she might lose it all.

Being in long-distance relationship for quite some time now, you would think it has become easier for her, but it has not. She yearns to be with him, yet what she has right now are but happy reminiscences of the time they spent together. When will their brief, hardly sufficient online talks become face-to-face conversations? When will the reminiscing end, and when will the actual experience and enjoyment begin? She can’t help but ask.

Soon, he tells her. Soon, she repeats with a smile that replaces that faraway look. Soon!

10 comments:

d_d_d said...

soon :)

Kayni said...

sooner than soon...i keep thinking a long distance relationship must be really hard. as they say...love will see your through...don't listen to me...don't listen to me...lol.

witsandnuts said...

That must be very difficult. But faith, love and trust will cure the distance.

unstranger said...

A dilemma for sure.

Amelia said...

I had the same belief before. I was once in a long distance relationship for more than a year but it didn't work-out....and I believe it will never be but don't listen to me...LOL! :)) it may work for others....

Anonymous said...

it is working so far. it is been over a year and you will always be the love of my life.

blessingboats said...

ride those memories endlessly...for they are the only balm for such longingness.

Artemis said...

i have had five yrs of long-distance relationship. it was perfect for me for i always wanted space for myself, he he. but of course everything depends on the situation, sabi nga nila :-)

jacqueline said...

oh, you know my story.. but that's my story!

hold on... just keep on holding on. sabi nga ni Side A. :)

he loves you, you love him, that should be guarantee enough that "soon" will come... soon. :)

whispernsecret said...

2 months since we last saw each other, and upon separation realized, we did not want to be where we are: him there, me here...

only then did we realize we made memories we will be holding onto like dear life...

I sent him what you wrote, even borrowed your title on the subject line (yes, you can bill me for that, please) because I couldn't have written my pain like you so bravely did...

And like I told him, "I don't know if we should take comfort in the thought that you and I are not alone in our pain or dread the thought that we could be in this for a while and it will NOT be easier as time passes... and that memories may fade and that we might altogether lose what we have..."

Still, I love him and he loves me... and it hurts like hell...

 
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