Friday, June 19, 2009

desolation

Friday, June 19, 2009

Mounting waves of loneliness threaten to engulf her at times when she least expects it. She feels its presence even when surrounded with colleagues and particularly when she goes home at night and closes her door to the world. Her eyes fall on the empty couch, the somber walls, the lone glass on the kitchen counter and she braces herself against another wave.

Beneath the pretty clothes, the sparkling laughter and the sweet smile is an utter desolation whose very existence would astonish anyone if they’d only look closer. Beneath the confident exterior is someone struggling not to fall apart.

10 comments:

Artemis said...

i sense a wave of change...

are you Ok dear?

jacqueline said...

at times like that, know in your heart that That too shall pass.

i myself go through such times despite having a husband who always insists that he hugs me until i fall asleep... and we call it "moments."

i know you will be fine. *muah* :) make use of the weekend to "regenerate."

Kayni said...

angeli, you're not alone. parang we're going through the same thing...there's a void inside me sometimes especially when i go home to my apartment. last night, i went to sleep at 7 pm...just to kill the loneliness.

but i'm sure we'll be fine. talk to me.

Agnes said...

You write beautifully, Angeli. You turn sadness moments into eternal beauty.

unstranger said...

Jesus God almighty, I hope you're OK kiddo, (you too Kayni).

I hope this is just a work of fiction and that you're only trying to frighten us with your ability to write such profound prose.

Seriously, what you can do to change this; when you close your eyes, visualize an energy source at the center of the universe. A sun or giant fire ball for instance from which shoots a massive ray of pure health and love-filled power that shoots in through the top of your head and fills every part of you right to the tips of your fingers and toes and when it shoots out through your extremities it takes away all those negative feelings. Feel the power removing all negative feelings especially loneliness and feel the surge of happiness fill you as the power flows through you. While you are doing this feel and express gratitude for what is happening and for what you are receiving. Do this every chance you get. It works.

God bless you kiddo.

d_d_d said...

hug and much love....

p.s. pati kenka kayni

witsandnuts said...

Hugs for you. Take care, Angeli.

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Anonymous said...

everything is going to be alright honey. never give in. remember when you are down there is no way but up. i love you. hugs and kisses.

Angeli said...

thanks guys. everything's okay now.

 
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