Monday, June 23, 2008

Men in Uniform

Monday, June 23, 2008

I learned today that my “crush” in high school has gotten married. The idea so tickled me that I just needed to write how this person started a phase in my life – a ludicrous fascination with men in uniform (and their fascination with me! :) People mistook it for a trend. But it wasn't. It was just a phase – a phase I’m so over with. Looking back, I can’t help but laugh at how silly I was.

Back in high school, I didn’t know that time and again I would have my head turned by a uniform. I didn’t know that this classmate I had a “thing” for would be forever known for his involvement in the Oakwood mutiny. I didn’t know that the first guy I’d fall hard for and also the one to first break my heart would be a man in uniform. His infamous break-up line, “Anj, can we be just friends?” that back then made me cry like there’s no tomorrow now just makes me smile. In spite of this, I was foolish enough to again fall for a uniformed man. I didn't know that i'd be so deluded to believe that the winged man I thought I can soar with would only leave me hanging in mid-air, destined for a free fall. To say that I was mistaken is an understatement.

Going up the military ranks, my ill-fated relationships with men in uniform started with a USCG lieutenant and ended with a PAF lieutenant colonel. Thank heavens, it never went all the up to the highest ranking officer. The uniform, which for me used to signify authority and strength of character, is now just another piece of clothing.

9 comments:

Marts said...

hahaha! The first thought I had when I read that he was staying with his in-laws (thus, married.. duh!), was something like: "married na pala sya"

Anonymous said...

uniform, locksteps, ritualized gestures, alpha male, first to eat, first to mate :)

Angeli said...

Hi mare,

lagi syang nasa TV when they were deliberating over the pardon thing.

naalala mo pa ba nung prom natin? :) i still have that picture of me and Y**** dancing.. napakasagwang tignan.. (and i remember your last dance was with J*****!) mwahahahahaha!!

miss you,
Jill

Angeli said...

uniform = regimented life

makes you cringe doesn't it?

:)

Marts said...

mare, I still remember that picture of yours dancing with him. I don't remember my last dance, though. hahaha!

Angeli said...

para akong may kasayaw na kapre, di ba? tall, dark and never mind... hahaha

let me refresh your memory then.. your last dance was with Jerico, to the tune of "only by giving me your everything, with a love so true.. you took me out of the blue.." by Michael Learns to Rock. You were wearing a black and red long-sleeved dress. Then we slept over at Jen's place. Actually, we were up all night, talking about "savoring" your last dance.

:)

Marts said...

eeewww...

let's just go back to your tall, dark and .. tall guy. hehehehe!

Marts said...

eeewww...

let's just go back to your tall, dark and .. tall guy. hehehehe!

Angeli said...

naalala ko na mare. he used to be my "tall, dark and putok ang labi" guy. mwahahahahahaha!!!

 
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