Wednesday, March 12, 2008

To Be Taken Care Of

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

I
am scheduled to have an operation a week from now. The surgeon asked me if there’s somebody to take care of me for a few days. I said, “There’s none. I live alone.” A look of incredulity registered on his face. At least, that’s better than pity. If it had been a movie, Gilbert O’Sullivan’s Alone Again (Naturally), would have started playing in the background: We may as well go home, as I did on my own. Alone again, naturally… There are actually some people willing but unable to take care of me. There's my mother (who lives in another town), my friends (who live in other countries) and my boyfriend (who lives on the other side of the world).

Living independently for most of my life, I wonder how it feels like to be taken care of. How does it feel like to have someone to depend on? Or to just sit still and let that other person decide for me, once in a while? Or to be weak because there is always someone beside me to be strong for me?

They say that we risk losing ourselves when we enter a relationship. Is it wrong then to want to be taken care of? Being independent does not mean that I no longer need anybody to watch over me. I do, once in a while.

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

Being taken cared of is overrated.

I recall a 92 year old man who was denied a beer by his caretaker because he might die. So I slip a note to the old guy, telling him there is beer volcano in FSM heaven. :)

Angeli said...

but what if he's not intended to go there? how disappointed he'd be!! :)

Anonymous said...

Oh he will, he followed the hallowed 8 I rather that you didn'ts commandments. :)

Angeli said...

Has FSM added anything to the list? The Holy See has just added polluting the environment, drug pushing, genetic manipulation and economic and social injustices to the list of grievous, mortal sins.

Anonymous said...

FSM frowns on absolute morality but encourages critical thinking instead.

Here's an actual conversation I had with a juvenile.

Juve: Is it true that everything is made by god?
Anon: No.
Juve: My CCD teacher told us so.
Anon: You just got a rosary from your aunt, right?
Juve: Yes.
Anon: Where is it made?
Juve: Made in China.

Critical thinkers are made and not created.

Angeli said...

Well, He can be Chinese. :)

 
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